~ Still Here
Well, as the weeks drag on, they are getting less and less exciting as I'm not doing as much. My due date was yesterday (November 23) and she did not make her appearance. I never thought I would be late. Everyone thought I would go early. I thought so too. I guess that shows me for making assumptions. My boss was the only one telling me "she's a girl; she'll come when she's good and ready, and she'll make you wait." All day yesterday (well, everyday actually), I was waiting and waiting for some kind of pain associated with a real contraction. My contractions are getting more and more uncomfortable and still happening every day and all day long, but they don't turn into anything.
I went to the midwife last Monday. I'm still 1 cm, but now I'm 70% effaced. She said I'm really soft and the baby's head is far down and pushing. But I'm still here! Every day I'm getting closer and closer to Gabe's birthday. I don't really want to be in the hospital for Thanksgiving (or Gabe's birthday!). That's my favorite holiday, I want to be home. Of course I probably won't care when I have my little girl in my arms. Dawn promised to bring us Thanksgiving dinner if we were in the hospital. People at work started asking me "wouldn't it be cool if she came on Gabe's birthday?" I don't think so, it would be quirky, but that's Gabe's special day. They should each have their own. We'll just have to wait and see. That's the worst part about getting to your due date; just sitting around and wondering and waiting and not knowing when your baby will come. The wait is so agonizing!
I was having a lot of pain in my cervix early in the week. I thought for sure it was time, it was really painful. It was reminding me what labor felt like. I was in pain for about two or three hours, then it just went away. I wasn't having any contractions, not even the false ones, which we all thought was odd. We thought that that night might be the night, but nothing. Maybe I just dilated some more or something. I also lost some mucus this week, only a very little bit--nothing to write home about. If I have lost more or my mucus plug, I haven't noticed.
Gabe's behavior has gotten better the last couple weeks. But he has been attached at my hip and always wants to be around me or cuddling or sitting in my lap. He told me this week he didn't want Lilly to come. Now I think he's starting to get worried about what's in store for him. But I always cheer him up by asking if he wants to play with her, help Mommy take care of her, and help give her a bath? Then he gets all excited again. He like to watch the belly and see her move and feel it, he thinks it's the funniest thing. My belly button has popped out now and is kind of discolored and he tells me every time that my belly button has a boo-boo. The receptionist at work and my good friend gave me a Percy stuffed toy at my baby shower to give to Gabe from Lilly when he sees her for the first time at the hospital. I thought that was a great idea, it'll help soften the blow (if that's the case). I don't remember if I mentioned that before.
I have my whole 40th week off work, so hopefully she comes this week, I really don't want to go back to work at 41 weeks. I don't want to be induced either. I have to see a doctor for this week's appointment because all the midwives were booked for the whole week. So now I have to discuss my overdue options with someone who isn't even handling my pregnancy and won't be there for the birth? Maybe I will call them and see if a midwife slot has opened up. My sister told me not to let them bully me into anything! I won't though, as much as I want to meet my baby, I don't want to be induced; I like things to happen naturally and as safely as possible, especially after Gabe's birth.
That's all for this week! Hopefully the next time you hear from me will be my birth story!