I have had an incredibly hard time this week with sleep issues. I just can't seem to find a way to sleep that is comfortable and then when I do, I don't seem to be tired or want to sleep and it is all becoming a vicious cycle. Pillows don't seem to be working very well and there is never enough room in the bed. I have found that the best way to deal with it is to get a duvet and tuck it under my tummy then between my legs and tuck under to support my back. Some nights, I found it more comfortable to sleep on the couch with the soft back cushioning nestled into my back and pillows around my front. Some nights, I've kicked my poor husband out to sleep on the couch instead. I don't know how I'm going to get through the next 13 weeks.
Coupled with the lack of sleep has been depression. It is starting to become a problem. I had this issue with pregnancy number two and last time my doctor landed up giving me sleeping pills and antidepressants. But, I know it's only a temporary depression and should correct itself when baby arrives. I don't want to go on any meds for it. I found that the sleeping pills limited the amount of kicks I felt with baby, so really don't want to go through that again. So, the only option is to cope with it. I know the biggest issue is the lack of sleep, so I'm trying to make that a priority over everything else. Getting enough rest is crucial. I make the most of the mornings the kids are in daycare to just do nothing except try and sleep or at least lay down. It is helping at least.
There is always something to do around the house and it's taking all of my energy. Whether it's just the dishes or cleaning or cooking dinner, but right now it seems to be a big effort and a chore. My poor kids are getting bored being at home so much this week. I've tried to make sure we go out each day to keep me sane and also to give the kids something to do. A bike ride to the park has been a favourite activity, and I know the exercise and fresh air helps with the depression. Maybe it's also the hormones doing its work on me again. I've felt like crying almost constantly and absolutely anything has made me burst into tears. Thank goodness Hadley has been so supportive with helping out around the house when I've asked him too and cook meals. I really hope things improve next week because if the next 13 weeks are anything like this week, it's going to be a living hell.