I hope everyone is great. I have been doing alright. I'm still tired and I have been having more contractions lately. The contractions aren't regular, they just wear me out. My two year old seems to be very aware of the fact that mommy isn't as quick as usual. He has a very strong personality and likes to push all of his boundaries. Of course, him being only two, he has a lot of them (meaning boundaries). He likes to try to sneak out of the house and run down the sidewalk. Even with doors locked and gates closed, he still manages to get out occasionally. It makes it especially easy for him if one of the older kids doesn't close a door all the way behind themselves. Needless to say my sweet little man is exhausting me. My older kids are always hearing me tell them, 'Quick go get your little brother!' I just can't run after him as fast as they can.
We had a wonderful time on Father's Day. My kids and I bought their dad a new summer outfit. He loves Hawaiian shirts. So, we got him a new one, shorts, and a few T-shirts. He liked his new clothes and he looks great in them too. After we went to church we came home and ate lunch. Then we went to the park for the day. It was a lot of fun. We walked across bridges and explored the entire park. The kids played in the spray fountains there and we took a ton of pictures. I added some new pictures so you could see everyone. After we left the park we went to get ice cream. It was a good day.
I have been thinking a lot about how I am going to balance everything after the baby is born. It might seem kind of funny to some people, but I have never really worried about it to this extent before. The only thing I worried about finding a balance for in the past was schooling. I wasn't quite sure how home schooling was going to be with a newborn. Now I'm really nervous about finding the perfect balance for all my kids. How will I find the time for everything and everyone? I have talked to my husband about it, but I think he thinks I'm superwoman or something. He just says I will be fine. What I really want him to say is, I know it might seem hectic at first, but everything will be okay because I will be here helping you every step of the way. Then he can sit next to me and help me fold the laundry or something to reinforce his comment. He could also comment on how well I have done so far. I don't know why, I have just been a little nervous this time around. I think it has something to do with all the different age levels and needs of my children. I don't want any of my kids feeling like I won't have time for them.
I also have been thinking a lot about when I might go into labor. I just don't think I will make it to my due date. I will be happy with that if that is the case. I am just so tired. I will miss being pregnant, but I will be happy to have my energy back. I will also be so happy to see this little angel that has been growing inside of me.
It is so amazing how our bodies work and how pregnancy affects us. There are typical things that I go through during my pregnancies and then there are so many differences with this little girl. I feel so blessed to be able to be pregnant. Typical things I go through in all my pregnancies are leg cramps, sickness and nausea in the beginning, a little lower back pain, different cravings (but never very many). Then there are also great things like my sex drive is always extremely high when I am pregnant, although this time it not quite as high as normal. Also, my nails grow better; I always love my changing body. I like the baby bump on my tummy. It always amazes me how a beautiful life can grow inside of me. As far as stretch marks go, I only got them with Jacob, I have never gotten any more than that. That is something I feel very thankful for. They aren't even very bad, and now they are over 10 years old. Jacob will be 11 in August.
Well, this is about it for this week. I will talk to you all again soon. I hope everyone is enjoying their summer.