I'm afraid that this week's journal is kind of depressing. I mentioned last entry that I am losing my job at the end of this month and with Christmas coming it is very stressful around our house. We really don't know what we're going to do. We have bills to pay and necessities to keep up with but we also have a four year old little girl with big aspirations about Christmas this year. We are going to make the most of it for her. I have to go file unemployment next week and the job outlook for me at least right now does not look so bright. My husband has been frantically trying to find more permanent work. We will just keep moving along. My parents have been great in that they are offering to help with Christmas but this whole situation has got me so down I'm not really sure how it's going to affect the baby.
I have lost my appetite and I'm not gaining weight which I should be at this point but with all the things going on, food is the last thing on my mind. I've forced myself to eat but it's just not healthy to do that. I am looking for part time work right now since there's no one in their right mind who would hire someone who is 8 months pregnant. That in itself has been a major undertaking. There are so many people looking for work; it's a rat race just to get an interview. I know there are people who have not had jobs in months so I am thankful that we at least have Brandon's income to live off of if we get desperate. At this point, I'm just anticipating having to sit home and deal with the holidays. I've never been much of a Christmas person anyway so to have this blow dealt to us at this time of year, makes it that much easier for me to slide back into Grinch mode.
I go back to the doctor the day after Thanksgiving for my 33 week checkup so I'll have an update for everyone then. I have been having a lot of contractions so maybe this little one wants to show up early for us! I will let you know.