~ To Sleep, or (too often) Not to Sleep
I have decided that the main difference so far between this pregnancy and my last one really is the amount of sleep I get. Even though I have cut back from full-time working, I am still exhausted on most days. Before kids, I could sleep all the time and I literally did sleep for 10 hours after a 12 hour shift! Now, I really like to spend at least an hour or two with BG on days after I work, so I try to get up in the afternoon, which usually only gets me around 6 or 7 hours of sleep.
Before too many people get angry with me for not being able to cope with that amount of sleep, please remember that I work at night, which means I wake up in the morning, do stuff all day with BG (I usually try to sleep during her naps, but sometimes you gotta use that time to get stuff done!), and then go to work for 12 hours, so the waking:sleeping ratio is really pretty bad! At least, it is for me, and I guess I am one of those people who require a lot of sleep. It doesn't help that it is flu season, so the ER is crazy and the hospital is full, which makes work unbearable.
To make matters worse, I am suffering from insomnia much earlier this time around. I didn't really have trouble sleeping last time until I reached the obese walrus stage. At this point the baby is the size of a pencil eraser, so can anyone explain to me how she is possibly keeping me up at night? I am pretty sure that all of my other symptoms can be attributed to the lack of rest. My heartburn has already kicked in, and I am A LOT more nauseated this time around. But, I am pretty sure if I could just get 12 to 24 hours of good sleep three times a week I would be fine, right? Ha, aha, whew, it turns out I am also going insane.
And speaking of insanity, I know that it is too early to know the gender of the baby, and we didn't find out last time until the birth. And I called BG "he" the whole time, but now I'm used to little baby girls, so I think I'm going to call this baby "she" when pronoun usage is necessary. I pray every night that she is safe, and I worry because it is so early in the pregnancy. I can't wait until I go to my parents' for Easter and get to see her little peanut body on the sono (my dad is an OB/GYN – free baby pictures in utero!). Those first views of a tiny baby kicking teeny feet and squirming all around are so wonderful, only two weeks until I get to see you in person!