Week 20 ~ March 7, 2007
~ Growing Excitement
Not much new with the baby this week, but I am starting to get very excited about having a new little bundle of joy. I'm not sure if it's because I've seen a lot of babies lately or watched too many baby specials on TV, but I'm so looking forward to holding a baby again. I can't wait to see what he/she looks like, get to dress them in those teenie tiny outfits, watch them sleep, smell that baby smell, cuddle them, and just be in complete awe again of a little baby. I think the overwhelming and scary thoughts of having a second child are getting less and less frequent and the thought of the addition and the extra love is making me very happy and excited for the future. The baby's kicks are getting more frequent and more noticeable, and I'm starting to really look pregnant so it's just more real all the way around.
I did experience one new thing this week, Ryan got his first flu bug. He awoke in the middle of the night vomiting, feverish, and having diarrhea. It was by far the hardest thing I've had to deal with as a parent. I felt SO HORRIBLE for him. It broke my heart to see him that sick. There was really nothing I could do other than hold him and try to comfort him, but it's the worst feeling in the world to see your child sick and know that there isn't really anything you can do. Plus, I just can't handle vomit; I can pretty much do blood, dirty diapers, that whole thing, but the vomiting is too much for me. I felt like I definitely got a good initiation to motherhood that night.