~ Still a Secret
It has been another uneventful week. One of my cousins graduated College this week, so we went to a Sports Bar to celebrate. Since my husband and I decided to keep our pregnancy a secret, I had to make up excuses for not drinking and being on a special diet. I'm wondering how long I can keep this up before they begin getting suspicious. Maybe I need to lay low for the next couple months. I can be pretty lazy sometimes, so that shouldn't be too difficult for me.
I took my mom out shopping for a late Mother's Day. We ended up buying each other a new pair of shoes at the Sketchers store. It was the first Mother's Day gift I've ever been given. It was kind of bittersweet not having Baylee here to celebrate the day with me, but overall it was a good day.
My last pregnancy, we treated it as such a delicate time that I didn't do any lifting or a lot of our normal day to day stuff and in the end, it didn't make any difference. For some reason, I feel completely different with this pregnancy, so I have been carrying on as I did before pregnancy. I have even been carrying in the big bags of dog food from the truck (only when Jeramy isn't around). I treat every day the same and not focus just on the pregnancy every moment. Actually, I barely even talk about it, so instead I write about it.
Next week we have our 8 week viability ultrasound scheduled. I know ultrasounds for most women are an exciting enjoyable experience, but for me that's not the case. I got so much bad news during my last pregnancy that now going for ultrasounds are just nerve-wracking and scary. I'm sure the night before I won't be able to sleep. Jeramy and I have been through so much heartache trying to have a baby, that if this one doesn't work out, we are done trying. I HOPE they see a nice strong heartbeat. I'll let you all know how it goes in the next journal.