~ A New Journey Begins!
On the morning of April nineteenth, it was time to take a pregnancy test. From what I had calculated, everything told me that the nineteenth was the day to test. So like all of the other times I have tested, I tried to not drink much before bed and then I took the test first thing in the morning. I thought there was a pretty good chance that I was pregnant, but was really trying to not get my hopes up this time and trying to just plan on the very real possibility that I was just late. Since losing our baby, my cycle has been far from "normal".
One month prior to this, I really thought I was pregnant. So much so that I almost mentioned it to some people before actually taking a pregnancy test. I'm glad I did not, since my cycle was just late. It's hard to not let yourself be excited over the possibility though.
So I took the test and laid it on the bathroom counter and left for a few minutes, since I find the few minutes watching it change is ridiculously stressful. After about five minutes I figured it would be negative and went on in. Positive! I was so excited and thrilled. I called Jeremy downstairs and asked him if he was ready to be a daddy again. He was also a little surprised and his response was, "Really?" So a few hours after that I took a second test, just to make sure before announcing to our family, and sure enough, it was positive too.
Isabelle and Michael were the first ones we told. They were pretty excited to hear that I have a baby in my tummy now. Isabelle really wanted to tell the baby she loves them, but she was also little nervous. She leaned in really close and said, "Hi baby. This is your big sister Isabelle and I love you." It was very sweet!
We decided to tell our family by making fortune cookies with little sayings on them like, "Your family will grow by another two feet this year", "Lucky Numbers: 12/28/2011", "Beware of small hands warming your heart", and a few others. It worked out wonderfully, and since it is not out of the norm for me to try new recipes, I just told them I had tried my hand at making fortune cookies. Their reactions were priceless!
I am a little concerned about how everything will go. I am not even past the point I was last time when I miscarried. I must admit I am still worried that something might happen to our little one again. We are praying it won't, but it is still hard to not worry. We feel so excited and blessed to be able to make this journey once again!
Hope you have a wonderful week!