~ The Holidays & Reflection on 2009
What a fun week. I love the holidays. Pregnancy-wise, the baby is definitely starting to get bigger! I can really feel her moving all the time. Even when she shifts a little, I think I can feel it. Rare are the times when I feel nothing. She seems to have hiccups between 2-4 times a day for about 5-10 minutes each time--I felt the jolty movements from the start without knowing what they were, but now they are big jolty movements and I read online that those are hiccups. She shifts from one side of my belly to the other easily, which I guess means she still has room in there to move around, but she is definitely growing, which is exciting!
We traveled from Indiana to Atlanta on Monday to join my family for the rest of the holidays, and that has been really nice. My mom threw me a baby shower Wednesday with some of her friends, who I don't really know, but they still came and brought me gifts anyway, which was incredibly generous of them! Unfortunately, I got sick on my way down to Atlanta, so I've been a bit out of sorts--nothing too serious, just a cold. I'm hoping this doesn't affect the travel back too much. We go back New Year's Day, which gives us a weekend free that I plan to use to FINALLY get the baby's room started! We will be moving furniture out of that room and just generally getting organized. And, I can't wait. I feel like it's been hanging over my head for forever.
In less positive news, I've decided that I need to find a therapist. As a teenager, when my hormones were raging (similar to now), I suffered from depression. And, I feel some definite symptoms of depression lately that I haven't felt since that time. I am pretty sure they are a result of my hormones again, and I was talking to my husband about possibly starting on anti-depressants. Since we don't really know if that can affect the baby, he wants me to try talking to a counselor first, so that will be a first order of business when we return home. Hopefully, I can get myself balanced out again before baby comes! Depression really sucks, especially when you know it's from a chemical imbalance inside that you can't do much about. But I know that I will get through it. I just don't want to miss out on any of the joy and excitement of pregnancy and a new baby!