It's been another fairly quick week around here. Still just counting down until my next appointment (12 more days!). My number one hope was that I'd start feeling definite movement this week. I might have felt a few tiny thumps, but still nothing regular and still nothing 100% for SURE. So once again, hopefully that will start this coming week!
Eating is getting somewhat easier. I can eat salad again, yay! And hummus! My number one craving is still grapes; we got some really good ones this week. But they're gone now. I need to get some more. Chocolate is great too, but grapes are even higher up on my list right now.
It was my birthday on Wednesday! Naren didn't want me to do any cooking for my birthday, but he didn't feel like cooking either, so he took me out for lunch and dinner. We were supposed to take Svara to her first play in the morning, but that didn't work out as there was confusion about the location and we ended up at the wrong place. Oops! Svara was pretty disappointed, so we took a little trip to a toy store before heading to lunch. She picked out a spiral art drawing kit. So lunch was at my favorite Mexican restaurant and it was great! I seem to be in that stage of pregnancy where good food tastes even more amazing. I love it! Dinner was at a Thai restaurant that we never tried before. It wasn't nearly as good and we won't be going back there. But dessert was a sundae at Baskin Robbins. Yummy! Usually I bake myself a birthday cake, but I was having a tired day and didn't do anything except take a nap between lunch and dinner. It was a nice relaxing birthday and I felt spoiled. Can't ask for more than that!
I've been tired for most of the week, but today was a bit better. I've been pushing through the tiredness and trying to get stuff done. It's not the mind-numbing tiredness of the first trimester luckily. I am still behind on a lot of stuff, but I'm catching up!
I am getting really tired of my wardrobe. I need a few nice looking shirts that fit, and a couple pairs of shorts. Hopefully some pay will come in the next couple of weeks so I can go shopping!! I was complaining to Naren about my belly sticking out of my shirts the other day and he says "well, you are pregnant!" Uh, yeah, I know! But I'd like to look nice-pregnant, not stuffed sausage pregnant. My maternity shirts are still tents, but most of my other shirts are creeping up. I have a couple regular unisex t-shirts that I can still wear, but they certainly are not an attractive choice. We went to a wedding last night and luckily I was able to still squeeze into a nice dress that I have. I certainly won't be able to squeeze into it again for about a year, so if we get invited to another wedding I'll be doing some dress shopping. But I'd rather save the money for baby stuff, so hopefully no more weddings in the near future.
We haven't started baby shopping yet, but I'm planning and really looking forward to it! The number one reason is that we are waiting for some pay; very important when you need to go shopping haha. But the second reason is that I'm waiting for this next appointment/ultrasound. I probably would feel more confident if I was feeling a lot of movement already, but I'm not so I'm feeling more paranoid. Like I have to know that everything is okay before I start shopping for this little one. When I was pregnant with Svara I felt like it took me a long time to really "bond" with my belly. I always felt that when I was pregnant again I would be able to bond more quickly because I already know what that end result is, a beautiful child. Perhaps I would have bonded more quickly if I hadn't had a miscarriage. Or perhaps it would be the same, I'll never know. But I just feel like I can't start any more buying until the next appointment. Like it's some invisible cutoff point. It makes no sense, I know, but I can't get over it. I guess it's a good thing that we are waiting for pay and can't go shopping anyway.
I don't mean to end the journal with a more "down" tone. I really am super excited and super impatient. I can't wait for the next 12 days to zoom by so I can see my baby again. I can't wait to start feeling those little kicks every day. I can't wait for Svara and Naren to start feeling the kicks, to really start bonding as a family other than just seeing my belly slowly growing (I really have to get a photo one of these days!) I'm glad the past two weeks have gone by quickly and I hope the next two go by quickly as well so I can get on with the rest of my pregnancy more peacefully!