~ Getting Closer
Wow, am I really 6 months already? I remember with my first pregnancy, it seemed to take years to get this far and now here I am. I feel like I just blinked and I'm more than half way there! It's kind-of nice though. With us being as busy as we have been this Spring (and certainly will be for the rest of Summer!), the second half will go by fast too. I hope.
Well, we have decided to have a home birth, for which I am extremely excited about. My husband is still unsure with the midwife being two hours away and all, but I'm not. I have such long labors that I'm certain there will be no trouble with her getting here in time. (Famous last words, right?) The funny thing is, is that the one thing I'm looking forward to the most (outside the fact that we will be here, no monitors, no waking up every 2-4 hours, no unnecessary medication...) is the pool. A friend of mine has a birth pool that she is lending us (she has never used the liner, so will be much easier to clean before and after I use it and there is no chance of cross-contamination from previous uses) and since it is much deeper than a standard bath tub, I'm really hoping it will live up to its nick name: "the midwife's epidural"! I have such horrible back labor and I have always gotten to the point where I feel I can't relax anymore without some kind-of pain medication, that I'm really praying this will work enough to relax me and relieve said back labor. Of course, the majority of our family who know, don't agree with a home birth. But that's okay. We have prayed about this A LOT and it's not something you just jump into. If both parents are not 100% sure about it, then it should not be attempted. We feel that this is the right decision for us and for our baby. It's not a slap in the face for others who do things differently, especially since I've had five births in the hospital.
Of course, I have yet to tell my mother or my sister (my father is totally out of the question!), so we'll see how that goes. My mother is supposed to be here in about two weeks and I'm planning on telling her when we are face to face. My mother is a school teacher and the week after school let out (the week she was first planning to come here), she took a math class. Then the next week, the second time re-planning to come here, my grandmother fell and hurt her head. So now the third plan is for her to come for the month of July. She could leave the week of June 22, but it has been decided by all parties that it is time for my grandmother to begin the transfer from her own house to an assisted living facility. My mother wants to wait until the ball is rolling and things are set in motion with that before coming here for a month, and I agree. So things haven't been conducive to me trying to explain our reasoning for a home birth over the phone.
The three older children have been in VBS (Vacation Bible School) this week in the mornings and it has been nice just being the Mama of two children for a few hours. I've gotten a lot done! And it has been really nice to have this time with Malachi and Nathaniel to spend time with them in ways that are not always possible with three other children. We are still doing their regular school in the afternoons (for which, they have been told, if they complain or whine about doing so, they will not be going to VBS the next morning) and I feel good that they can still have some-what of a "regular" summer, and yet stay on track with their school. I hope to be done with that by the time this baby is born. That way, we can start the next grade after we all have adjusted to another family member.
That's about it for me. Blessings this week/end!