~ Still Pregnant
Well, I'm still here, and still pregnant. I really can't believe it. Although, at the same time it's kind of funny, since originally I thought that I was going to go 41 weeks, but when the baby dropped at 34 weeks and the doctor started saying I could go any time, I got my hopes up. Now I spend every day wondering if today will be the day. I almost wish he hadn't told me that I'd dropped, or that I'd probably go early. Sigh.
This week was filled with more uncertainty. More jumping at every cramp and energy spurt. I've been losing mucous on a daily basis, but yesterday I had a ton come out, so I think my mucous plug is now gone (or mostly gone). I've also been feeling a lot of pressure lately - I swear, it practically feels like the baby's about to drop out of me (I wish). It can't be much longer now (can it?).
Other than all the crazy labour hypochondria, it has been a pretty uneventful week. At Monday's doctor's appointment I had gained a pound and a half, for a total of 28 lbs for the whole pregnancy (not bad, if I do say so myself). Aaron came with me to the appointment because they prefer to have the father there from 37 weeks on, but it was really a waste of his time as it was only a five minute appointment (the usual: blood pressure, listen to heartbeat, see you next week). I'm not sure if he's going to come next Monday (assuming I make it to Monday - I'm still hopeful), since it makes him really late for work. On the other hand, they start checking me for dilation and effacement on Monday, so it could be an exciting appointment.
I know I've said it before, but I am just so ready for this pregnancy to be over. I just want to hold my baby, and I want my body to be my own again. I am still walking the dog twice a day (for a total of about 40 minutes), but the walks are getting slower and more uncomfortable. I've also started taking two naps a day - I get up at 6:30 am to walk the dog, go back to sleep around 9 am, get back up at 10:30 or so and then nap again around 2 pm. Aside from some minor tidying around the house I don't manage to get much done, I'm just too tired. I don't know how some women manage to work right up until their due dates; I can barely manage to sit on the couch and watch tv.
Sorry this entry has been so whiny, I'm just really ready to be done with being pregnant. This Sunday is Mother's Day and the best present I could hope for would be to have my little girl in my arms by then (but I suppose I'll settle for breakfast in bed and a bouquet of flowers). I hope you all have a wonderful Mother's Day with your families. Wish me luck in getting the gift I want more than anything.