~ Frustration and False Alarms
Well, I didn't get my Mother's Day wish. I'm still pregnant and getting more frustrated by the day. At Monday's doctor's appointment I had my first internal and got good news and frustrating news. The good news is I'm 100% effaced, 1 cm dilated, my mucous plug is gone and baby is at 0 Station. The frustrating part was when the doctor said I'll probably not give birth for another two weeks or more! Say what? For the last month he has been saying any day now, and now all of a sudden I'm going to go the whole 40 Weeks (or more)! How is that possible? I'm just so confused and frustrated.
It wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't for the pain. And the uncertainty. But especially the pain. For over a month now I've been having fairly bad pains that feel like period cramps (really bad period cramps) - it's bad enough having them for a week every month, but it's been every day for five weeks now! On top of that I also get sharp pains across my abdomen (and in my breasts) as well as backaches and leg cramps. I know I'm being whiny again, but I feel like I am in almost constant pain. My plan is to try and go as long as possible without pain meds during labour, but this past month has worn me down so much I don't know how I'm going to cope. If false labour/pre-labour hurts this much, what is real labour going to feel like?
And speaking of false labour, we had a bout of that this week too. On Wednesday afternoon I was taking a nap when a really bad cramp woke me up. Another came 20 minutes later, and another 20 minutes after that. I got up and walked the dog and they got worse, and started coming about every 15 minutes. At this point, even though it was near the end of the day, I called Aaron and let him know what was going on, and he decided to head home a bit early. By the time he got home (after more than three hours of regularly spaced cramps/contractions) they had slowed down to every half hour or so. We went for another walk and they started coming stronger, but they died out again once we got home. Needless to say we were both pretty disappointed. Since then I've been getting random painful cramps/contractions that refuse to come regularly, as well as having long bouts of painful period-like cramps. I'm sure that this is my body's way of preparing for labour, but all it's doing is frustrating me. I'm sure I wouldn't mind the pain quite so much if I knew it was actually going to result in a baby - soon.
I know that at this point all I can do is wait. I'm really looking forward to my next appointment on Tuesday to see if I've dilated more (surely these cramps must be doing something!?!). Oh, and for the record, I've been trying all kinds of natural induction methods to try and get things going with no luck at all. So far, I've struck out with pineapple, kiwi, spicy food, sex, walks, oregano and basil, eggplant, and I can't remember what else. No, I haven't tried castor oil, but that one kind of scares me - it can make you very sick and dehydrated, and besides, I've had diarrhea naturally on several occasions recently and it hasn't started things going, so I don't think the castor oil would either. I guess it's true that baby will come when she's ready, and not a moment before. I just wish she'd hurry up and be ready already .
Well, I suppose that is it for this week. Keep your fingers crossed for me that things start to happen soon!