~ Meet Kaye
Hi, my name is Kaye and I am 32 years old. I am currently 8 weeks pregnant with what will be my second baby, although this is my third pregnancy. Before I had Ella I lost a pregnancy to a missed miscarriage. The first baby died around 12 weeks (just after our ultrasound), but I didn't find out until 17 weeks. Fortunately I got pregnant with Ella just a few months later, although having had a missed miscarriage made me very nervous about the pregnancy. I was anxious when I was really sick, and anxious when I felt good. Unfortunately, that hasn't changed this time around, despite the fact that Ella's pregnancy went really well.
I've been lucky that I haven't been very sick this pregnancy (not counting a minor bout of food poisoning last week), just tired, but of course that just makes me worry. Ella has been really good about letting me nap (sometimes up to three hours!), but I'm still in bed by 9pm at the latest.
As with the last pregnancy we're not telling many people yet - and that includes family. Everyone was so upset about the first loss that we're a bit wary of causing more pain. On the other hand, I'm already starting to show (three pregnancies in three years will do that to you), so I'm not sure how much longer we'll be able to keep it quiet. We'd like to hold off until after our first ultrasound (at 12 weeks), but we're having a big Halloween Party the week before it and we'll probably announce it then.
Other things you should probably know about me include that I am a stay-at-home mom, and I baby-sit my neighbour's toddler four mornings a week. It actually works really well because it keeps Ella occupied, and for the most part it doesn't take much more effort to look after the two than one. I'm not sure if I'll be able to keep it up later in the pregnancy or after the new baby arrives, but my neighbour and I are taking it one day at a time.
Also, I have a big white dog who has been acting like a jealous two-year-old since Ella arrived. He's really good with her, but loves to steal her toys and make mischief when we're busy changing her diapers or paying attention to her. I suppose I should think of it as training for when the new baby comes, because I'm pretty sure that Ella is going to behave at least as badly, if not worse, but hopefully at least the dog will have calmed down by then.
Which brings me to my panic moments. This was a planned pregnancy, and we're really excited, but I have to admit I'm nervous about how Ella is going to react to the new baby. Right now she's really cute; I've told her there's a baby in my belly and she hugs and kisses it, but that's a far cry from when there's a tiny screaming baby stealing attention from her. I guess I really need to get reading on how to introduce a new baby to the family. Sigh. I just hope that my little darling doesn't turn into a green-eyed monster in 7 months. It doesn't help that the two kids might share a birthday, or come pretty darn close, since my due date is only 2 days before Ella's due date.
Ok, I think that's enough for right now. More to come next week,