I am a big supporter of breastfeeding. Huge. I'm the person you'll find in the middle of the restaurant, covered up, but very obviously nursing my baby. I think that breastfeeding mothers need more supporters, and breastfeeding should be an acceptable activity no matter where you are.
My older two were very different babies when it came to nursing. My oldest nursed until he was two and a half. I only weaned him before he was ready because I was pregnant with his little brother. My middle son quit at 15 months, and I was devastated! It was his choice. He just completely lost interest. I worried that the bond I had with him wouldn't be as strong as the one I had with G because of this, but it made no difference at all.
So fast forward to baby #3. He has absolutely no interest in giving up the breast, but this time around, I'm ready for him to be done. I know, that sounds terrible, but it's true. I should back up and tell you that the older two were exclusively breast fed until they were a year old. At a year, we introduced milk in sippy cups at the babysitter's house, but they still nursed at home. With C, we have done a combination of nursing and formula. I only pumped for a month when I went back to work this time, then gave him formula when he was at the sitter's. I struggled with this decision, but I decided that a happy mommy was important, too. Pumping was just a struggle this time around, but I still admit to some guilt. I kind of feel like I've shortchanged him.
We were down to night time only nursing, before he went to bed and if he woke in the night. He still wakes up, usually around 4 am, and I admit it's the fastest way to get him back to sleep! Since I've started back to work, however, he's now wanting to nurse in the late afternoon and evenings as well. He obviously is not ready to give it up, no matter what my feelings are the matter are! And he is a stubborn little man . . .
My reasons for wanting to quit? I just feel like it's time. I'm ready to sleep through the night. I think that once we quit nursing at night, he will quit waking up for it. And I'm at a different place in my life than I was with the first two. I don't think this is wrong. It's just different.
So that's where I am now. To wean? Or not to wean? I really need to find the answer to this question. Then I need to stick to it . . .
Until next time!