~ Are You Talking to Me?
This month has started off pretty good. September 12th my "baby" turned TWO!! We spent his actual birthday just playing around the house and relaxing from the day before. On Saturday the 11th, we had a nice birthday party for him with all of our close friends and family (which is fairly small). His party was a Shrek theme, because he is absolutely obsessed with SHREK!!
I think I forgot to mention that Brandon (my husband) and I are both ONLY children, so we want to have a fairly large family. When I say large, we are thinking along the lines of four children. But I guess I will get as many as God wants to bless me with. Our poor children won't have any true aunts, uncles, or cousins, kind of sad if you think about it. So I think that is why we want to have four kids. Well to be honest I would probably have as many children as possible, but I want to be able to provide for them like I was provided for as a child. I guess only time will tell and we will get what God blesses us with.
So now moving on to the TTC part of my journal . . . After some thought, Brandon and I both decided to go down the "Clomid path." I took Provera to start my period and then on day five, I started taking 50mg of Clomid for five days. Right now we are on day 12 of my cycle and I have been going to the doctor for a sonogram everyday since day 10 (Monday the 20th) and will continue to go until I ovulate. When I first went on Monday, my left ovary seemed to be "making" an egg. When the sonogram tech talks about size, I am not really sure what that means, but anything over a 20 is supposed to rupture an egg. Well when I went Monday it was around a 16.2 and then Tuesday it was a little more than 18. I am currently going today (Wednesday) to see if it has gotten over a 20 and see if we have the green light to start having sex. She advised that we wait to have sex after I went on Monday so that my husband would be able to build up as much sperm as possible for when I do ovulate. I guess I will just wait and see what today brings!
Now I have to admit when I first went on Monday, I became a little upset and stressed after the appointment. To be honest, I never thought I would be one of those people. You know, that have problems with fertility. When I say those people, by no means am I meaning it in ANY sort of derogatory way. I truly know how blessed I am to have even one healthy child and how much of a miracle he truly is. I just never thought I would be the one to be sitting in the doctor's office listening to them talk about me and my infertility. I mean, I know that what I am going through is nothing compared to what a lot of couples endure, and I thank God everyday for what I do have because I am a very blessed person. Now don't get me wrong, I would do whatever it took to have a baby. I just never thought I would have to do anything but have unprotected sex in order to get pregnant. You see, when I got pregnant with Kaydon we were not trying whatsoever, it just kind of happened. Let's just say he was an extra little blessing that I wasn't really expecting at the time. I think I was just a little shocked and it was a reality check as to what a lot of couples have to go thru and a whole lot more for years. Makes me appreciate what I do have so much more.
So now I am at a waiting point to get the "green light" and then it is on to the dreaded two week wait before we will know if our efforts have succeeded! We also went to a fall festival at church this past weekend and I have attached a couple of pictures from that and of Kaydon playing on his new swing set he got for his birthday.
Well, wish me luck and I will be back to let you know how everything turns out! Baby Dust!