~ The Joys of Loneliness and Hormones!
These past three weeks have been a roller coaster of emotions. I really do not even know where to start.
On Friday the 13th, Brandon and Kaydon left for Chicago until the following Thursday, the 19th. I was initially really excited about them leaving, not because I do not enjoy having them around but it was literally a week where I did not have to worry about anyone but myself! I also gave myself a HUGE "to do" list while they were gone since I had time alone. I pretty much started on my list right away. One of my main tasks that week was to get Kaydon's baby book up to date so that once Colton arrives I can focus on keeping his up to date and just add to Kaydon's as he grows. That baby book turned into one of my biggest projects for the week. It was such an emotional roller coaster as I filled in so much and really realized how much my "baby" has grown. There is one portion in his baby book where you write a letter to the child and at the end it has a portion of all the things you are going to miss when they are older. I could have just cried my eyes out at that part. Realizing how much he has grown and changed, makes me realize just how much I am going to miss when he is older. I literally just had to stop working on the book for the night because I was just too emotional. Needless to say, I was definitely ready for them both to get home by the end of the week. Although I feel like I accomplished a lot while they were gone with just "chores" around the house. I also went a got a prenatal massage, which was HEAVEN! I highly recommend them for anyone!
That week I also, FINALLY, finished Colton's room. Everything is put in its place; clothes are hung up, bedding is washed and put in the crib, and decorations are hung. I did the letters for his name the week they were gone to match the bedding and we got those hung up above his crib. I was actually really happy with how they turned out!
On Saturday, the 21st, my friend Lindsey threw a little baby shower for me. It was pretty small with just a few close friends and family. I did not register or anything because I really did not need too many things for Colton's arrival. My mom got me an adorable diaper bag with his name embroidered on it. It is super cute! I got some diapers and wipes (which are always needed), some clothes, gift cards, and a few other items such as bibs and bottles. All in all it was great day and made me realize even more how close we are to his arrival.
I have had two doctor appointments in the last three weeks since I am now going every week. At 36 weeks my doctor starts checking for dilation. I thought for sure I would have some progress, but I was not dilated at all. He did say that Colton had definitely dropped and my cervix was softening. He also said that he thinks Colton will be another good size baby, like Kaydon. Kaydon was 8 lbs. 4 oz. when he was born and the doctor thinks Colton will be somewhere between 8 1/2 and 9 1/2 pounds. I really hope he is closer to the 8 1/2 pound mark because 9 1/2 pounds is just too close to 10 and that freaks me out! LOL! I told him if we could just avoid a 10 pounder, I'll be happy!
At my 37 week appointment, he checked me for dilation again. I though surely this time . . . but no! I was still not dilated. Cervix was softening even more and thinning out. He also said he could tell his head was even lower (trust me doc, I can definitely tell that too when I try to walk). I am still comfortable with the amount of weight that I have gained. I am around 17 pounds from when I started. I think that is a good amount considering I had some extra weight on me when I started out. Oh, I did get my results from the Group B Strep test and they came back negative, which is a relief. I know it is not a huge deal, but it is just less that I have to worry about.
I guess I should mention the reason I thought I would be a little dilated is because when I was pregnant with Kaydon, I was dilated from the first week they started checking. In fact, at my 37 or 38 week appointment, I was dilated to a 4 and the doctor made the comment that he did not think I would even make it past that coming weekend. Well, I definitely made it about a week or two more and ended up being induced because he was measuring large. When I went into the hospital that morning to be induced I was having contractions (that I did not feel) and was about 4 1/2 cm dilated. But, since I never went in to actual labor on my own, I told Brandon maybe this time I will not have much progress but will go into labor on my own. I guess only time will tell.
Another wonderful pregnancy symptom that has increased these past few weeks is my hormones! Brandon made the comment the other day when we were talking about something how I cry at everything nowadays. I do not feel depressed or anything along those lines, I just get so sentimental lately. Every time I see something on TV about a baby or some other "cute" thing, I could just break down and cry. I really get upset when I think how fast Kaydon is growing up (doesn't that seem to be a reoccurring theme lately)? I really do not know why I get so upset thinking about how much he's grown. I really hope it passes once Colton is born. I am just trying to remind myself to cherish every moment because time does go by fast.
That is about it for these past few weeks. I am just getting closer and closer to Colton's arrival and a more excited by the day! I can't believe in a few short weeks he will be here. I am so excited and nervous about what the future holds, but I now it will be GREAT! I will be sure and update next week after my doctor appointment (unless by some chance I go into labor, but I doubt it). I am also including a picture from Easter weekend. You can definitely see how much my belly has gown!
Until next week!