~ One Life Ends While Another Will Soon Begin
On the day I rolled over into my 35th week, my grandma passed away. My mom called me around 8am to let me know that she had passed at about 2:45 am that morning. Strangely enough, I didn't cry. I guess that was because I was expecting it and I think almost hoping for it. I don't mean that to sound uncaring, but to watch your loved one turn into something other than who they are, it's difficult. By the time it came to hospice care, she was just a shell of the woman that I knew. I think it was relief that she was finally back into a better place where she could once again be herself. It was also nice because my grandpa and my great aunt (my grandma's sister) were with her when she passed. As I mentioned in a previous post, they all reside at the same nursing home, so when it got to be very near, they woke them to let them know and they decided to go to her room to be with her. I know in her last moment, knowing that her husband of 60+ years was there with her was probably a big comfort to her.
So, that brings me to the other part of my title . . . that another life will soon begin. I only have a few more weeks until this little guy is to arrive. It seems a bit strange to me in some sense because we lose one life in our family, only to be getting ready to welcome another. I find some comfort in that. It would have been nice that my grandma would have made it long enough to meet her second grandson, but in all honesty, she would not have had a clue who he was or for that matter who I was. Now that she is "back to herself," she'll be able to enjoy him and watch over him. That gives me a bit of peace.
On a more positive note, I had my weekly doctor appointment this week as well. Baby is doing great and still has a nice strong heartbeat. I was pleasantly surprised as well as I didn't gain any weight from last week . . . so I think that keeps me around 29 lbs so far. I'm pretty happy with that. I am starting to have more swelling though in my feet and hands, so I'm not sure that I won't start putting on weight due to the fluid retention. I only have a little less than three weeks left, so we'll just have to deal with what comes.
Also, Dylan was finally able to feel his baby brother hiccup. He got the goofiest grin on his face when he felt it . . . not sure he knew what to think of it.
Next week, we have a few things to do. Dylan and Kaylee turned 6 this week (gulp!) and we will be celebrating their birthday with my family next week. We did have a little family dinner the night of their birthday, which was fun and relaxing. We will also be having the funeral for my grandma next week. It will be a small affair, as my family isn't very big. We are just holding it at the chapel in the nursing home, so I imagine there may be a few staff members there as well. My mom is then taking all of us out to dinner afterwards. It will be a nice way to remember her.
So until next week . . . hugs and belly rubs!