Happy June Gloom to everyone! I usually just love the warmer/hot weather, but it seems like So Cal has been stuck in a gloom for weeks. We've been BBQing with jackets and tennis shoes on instead of the tank tops and flip flops we are used to. I suppose we are experiencing this type of weather so that it makes us appreciate the hot weather that is approaching. We'll see about that!
Even if the sun has not shown itself in awhile at least I can say I feel A Fresh Start is on the horizon. Questions have been answered, tests have given results, and for the first time I feel at ease. Our doctor appointment with our fertility specialist has cleared up some major worries I have had. First I had the HSG test completed. Not sure if anyone reading this has gone through the same test, but it was so very painful. They stick a long tube into your uterus and then attach a balloon at the end of it where they pump it with air to enlarge the uterus. After which they inject you with a blackish die. This is to see if your fallopian tubes are clear. Let's just say that as soon as they were about to blow the balloon up I thought I was going to pass out. It was so painful that I broke out into a hot sweat and started shaking uncontrollably. They had to stop the procedure and calm me down. The weird thing is that my body acted this way on its own. I felt that I had no control whatsoever. Needless to say I was just trying to get through it. The doctor said she could stop and I could go back to my doctor to get a prescription for a pill to relax my muscles. "ARE YOU KIDDING ME" . . . I thought. No way do I want to go through all of this again. So I asked her to please proceed as gently as possible. It really was incredibly painful, and not only did I request this particular day off from work, I had to call in the next day since there was no way I could go in from all the pain I still felt. I really never want to go through that again. Now I wonder how I will ever get through labor. My hubby was a champ taking care of me for two days . . . love you honey!
I had lots of blood work and my hubby had some tests as well. We had our long awaited doctor's appointment and I could hardly sit still waiting to hear everything. What if my only fallopian tube left was blocked . . . then what? Our doctor enters the room, flips through our file and finally starts revealing the results . . .
Turns out our tests came back and my fallopian tube was indeed open!!! WOW what a great feeling that was. I was so stressed and worried for weeks. My hubby then received his results . . . All is well there too. Lots and lots of little sperm just waiting for the perfect opportunity 
. The doctor said to keep at it . . . and that's what we are planning on doing (hubby very excited about that 
).
My head is clear, my worries not so worrisome anymore, our one year anniversary is approaching in just a couple of weeks, and our future for the moment reveals a fresh start. Life is Good!
~Loni
