~ So Much Better!
Quick family update from the chaos of last couple of weeks. My granny is doing well. She was very weak and is in rehab facility right now trying to regain her strength. She is upbeat and playing bingo every chance she gets! Dad and Ms. Margie made it back home safe and sound. God is still working on the mom thing. She is coming around, I think. My sister-in-law had a spinal tap and is home doing well. The girls' nanny is home from the hospital as well and their uncle is hanging in there. Last but definitely not least, we are currently rash free! Thank God for answering prayers! God is SO Good!
I am so grateful that I really am feeling quite well these days. Food is good, real good! I have more energy and I am very surprised that my weight is not escalating like crazy. I have really tried, sort of, to follow my OB/Gyn's advice to eat six small meals a day and never eat a big meal because it will leave me feeling too full and I may get heartburn or indigestion from these "big" meals BUT . . . did I say that food is good! I am craving for some strange and unknown reason fried chicken and hot sauce. I had it three days last week. I am eating regular meals like most folks do you know, breakfast, lunch and supper. I do have snacks in between but I am sure that if my doctor followed me around there would be some finger pointing and head shaking!
I am getting so anxious about my ultrasound. Two weeks and 1 day to go, I can't wait! I said that I would not be getting my hopes up for a little girl but I have. Everyone tells me, "I hope that this is your little girl," and I truly hope so too. All of the children are hoping for a girl and I have explained to them that we will have what God wants us to have. The whole entire experience started with a God breathed desire for a child and every step of the way God has shown us just how awesome that He really is. I know that in the dreams that Gregg and I had before we prayed so hard for God's will about even getting pregnant we both dreamed that we had a beautiful baby girl. I also know that God wants to give me the desires of my heart like it says in Psalm 37:4.
God knows our hearts and he knows what lies ahead for us so I am confident that he will bless us with another miracle, a precious life for us to love and nurture and raise to worship, serve and love him. My heart's desire has truly become to do only what God wants me to do. I for many years left God out of my daily life. I knew God, believed in him and was not a bad person but I made decisions that were not the best for me and my family. Our family unit was broken and we had turmoil and strife in our lives. We did have love but we also had anger and frustration that sometimes boiled over from one to the other of us like some kind of virus. When God began to transform our lives we had to acknowledge that he was the only one who could fix the mess that we had made of our beautiful family. Gregg and I had to make the decision to believe that God was the key to our making it not just for us as individuals but for our children and their futures as well. They saw us humble and broken, not perfect as we admitted the mistakes that we had made and ask God's forgiveness and guidance. They also saw us believe God for financial miracles, clothes and some of the basics. God showed up and showed out every time!
Not only going to church but walking daily with God, praying together as a family and standing on God's word believing and trusting in him for all things has been what has brought us through the "Fire"! We are like Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego (from the book of Daniel chapter 3 in the Holy Bible). A summary of that story is that these three men were told by the king, Nebuchadnezzar, to bow down to him. They refused and so the king had them thrown in to a fiery furnace. He had the furnace turned up seven times hotter than usual and the fire was so hot that the guards that were doing the throwing were burned up. As King Nebuchadnezzar looked into the fire, he was astonished by what he saw. He asked, "Did we not cast three men bound into the midst of the fire?" They told him, "Yes, we did." He then said, "I see four men loose, walking in the midst of the fire, and they are not hurt; the form of the fourth is like the Son of God." The story goes on to tell that when they came out of the fire that they did not even smell of smoke and were completely unharmed. God sent his son, The Son of God, to go through the fire with them and help them to make it through unharmed and with a stronger faith than before. God can and will do that for me and for you. We just have to humble ourselves before him, ask for his help and allow him to help us through. I am not perfect and will never be but God is a forgiving God and he knows my heart and will help me with the things that I struggle with in my daily life.
Patience is what I pray for the most. I am a work in progress but I know that with God on my side that I can make it through any "Fire"! Phillippians 4:13 says that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. He helps me to see people through his eyes and in turn helps me to minister to them in ways that I could not do without his presence in my life. With him by my side I am a better wife, mother and person than I could ever be on my own. I know because I have tried to make it without him. I have been pretty independent most of my days and asking God for help was not always easy but I am proud to say that now, no matter what the problem or worry, I know he's got my back!! I pray that God is with you as you journey through the week ahead! God Bless YOU!
With a Smile,