This year Adisyn went from a helpless newborn to a walking, babbling sweet-heart! Isn't it amazing what a baby can do in one year? Could you imagine if we accomplished as much in one year as a baby does? She is turning more and more into a toddler every day.
Looking back on this past year I realize that even though the newborn phase wasn't my favorite, it wasn't nearly as scary as I pictured. It was a great bonding and learning experience. There were so many sweet moments when I would be up with her in the middle of the night and she would sleep in my arms. As she gets older, I love that she is able to learn, play and interact. I love that she enjoys being with mommy and daddy and she still loves to cuddle! I know that this won't always be the case, so I am enjoying it while I can!
Since my last journal Adisyn officially started day care and my mother-in-law has returned home. I know that this is going to be a great learning experience for her as well as Mark and I. I remember the first day that when I got home from work and I came home to my family. We are able to relax and play together with complete privacy in our own home! It was like a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I did not realize the extent of my anxiety until that day. Mark's parents will still visit often, but it's nice to have our space and a normal relationship with my in-laws. It's nice that they will just be visiting, not living with us!
I have also started weaning away from breastfeeding. It's an emotional experience, more than you'd think. I kept going back and forth and thinking should I continue to pump or should I wean her off? Even though I love everything about breastfeeding now (more than I ever thought I would) I decided (with the support of Mark) to wean her off. But, for now, I will continue to nurse first thing in the morning and in the evening but Adisyn will be drinking regular milk at school and I will no longer pump at work. Adisyn was ok with the new concept, but you can tell she still prefers to nurse. Right now I'm not sure when I'll completely stop, but I think that we'll just know when it's time. I'm glad that I get to hold onto it just a little longer!
As you know I was unsure if I was ovulating at all these past few months. I had no way of really knowing, since AF never has come to visit. So, with the suggestion of the StorkNet community, I decided to try an OPK, just for starters. It was a shot in the dark because, according to the package, you have to begin a certain amount of days after menstruation. Well, since I don't have that to go by, I just had to start testing and hope for the best. Surprisingly, I actually got a positive ovulation result! I was so shocked because, if you remember, before I had Adisyn, I wasn't ovulating. So, I'm praying for the best that we'll have a PPT! Still, I'm so hesitant on testing and tempted at the same time. I really want to "feel" pregnant and just know, but I'm optimistic. I think I really just want to have a natural, normal, healthy pregnancy and this is just my way of doing it.
This year has been amazing beyond any words can describe. We are so proud of Adisyn and feel so blessed. If this year has brought us so much joy and excitement and I'm looking forward to see what this coming year brings!
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