I love the quote attributed by T.H. Thompson and John Watson: "Be kind. Everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle," because everyone has a story and in order to fully get to know someone you have to reveal each other's battles which make you who you are. I am hoping that reading my journal will show you the obstacles I have been through and how we are overcoming them.
My name is Rebecca and I've been married to my wonderful husband Mark since August 3, 2002. When I turned 30 last year we decided to really contemplate the idea of having children. In our 20s we focused on our careers - I was a Physical Therapist Assistant for seven years then I decided to go back to school to get my master's degree in Physical Therapy. In August 2009 I finished my degree and I have been working as a Physical Therapist ever since. My husband finished his bachelor's degree before we got married but has been with the same company ever since with hopes of moving up the ladder. In November 2009 he received a promotion that relocated us to another state. About the time when I turned 30 last December and my husband was going to be 31 that next month, we decided to stop taking birth control and see what happened. In March 2010 we found out I was pregnant. We always said that if it happened then it was meant to be.
When the shock of the pregnancy had overcame us (we couldn't believe we were actually pregnant) we were beyond excited. At our 20 week ultrasound we found out we were having a girl but they were worried because she was measuring smaller than normal. We were sent to a high risk doctor and through mixed communication (which I will discuss later) they doctor told us the prognosis wasn't good. Our hearts dropped. At 25 weeks they couldn't detect a heartbeat and therefore they induced labor. Ada Noelle was delivered stillborn on September 3, 2010.
Now, over two months later we still miss our little Ada so much. We feel blessed to have met her and feel like she was an angel sent by God. She is so much a part of our lives and a part of our life story that we are building together. We have worked together through our grief and will always miss her but we are ready to have our second child. We are so scared but at the same time we have hope for the future. We pray that God will bless us again and we will become pregnant soon. We officially starting trying this month and we hope that we hope that we will be able to share good news with our families for Christmas. We'll see what happens!!