Since when has seeing a line magically appear ever been such a life changing event? For almost a year now, I have waited to see even the barest hint of a shadow appear on the spot where a second line should show up. I've had dreams of the day, my reaction and excitement. Yet, when the legendary second line appeared, all I felt was shock and incredulity.
"That is not a second line. It can't be."
"This really isn't happening."
After the minute or so of disbelief, I raced to find the nice and expensive digital pregnancy test to confirm what the "cheap" pregnancy test was saying. Five minutes later, I was sitting naked (I was going to get in the shower after the pregnancy test said negative) on the bathroom floor wondering how in the hell I hadn't known I was pregnant. Every month I had watched for signs and symptoms of pregnancy, trying to convince myself that maybe this month I was pregnant.
I guess what made this month different was that I assumed all the symptoms were side effects of the Clomid. I haven't let my husband touch my breasts in a month they've hurt so much. The night before I tested, my husband had been up all night with his brother watching movies and when he got into bed, he gave me a kiss goodnight. I'm sure his breath didn't smell as bad as it seemed to me, but it was all I could do not to gag. I felt soooo bad! It was around 6 in the morning and I went to the bathroom and laid on the floor waiting for my stomach to stop hurting.
Finally convinced that I was pregnant, I had to figure out how to tell my husband. Still in shock, I got in the shower and went through the motions, trying to think of how to tell Jamie. When I got out of the shower, that I still don't remember taking, I put on clothes and kept thinking, "How am I going to tell Jamie?!"
As I went through the living room I spotted an empty Crown Royal pouch and decided what I would do. Jamie was at his brother's house so I drove over on the longest car trip of my life. Jamie came outside to meet me and I pulled the pouch out of my purse and told him that I brought him a surprise. He opened the pouch and a look of shock came over his face.
His exact words were, "Are you really?" I nodded and tears were streaming down my face. Then he hugged me close and started crying into my shoulder. I don't know how long we stood like that before my brother-in-law and sister-in-law came outside. Amy was asking us what was wrong when we looked at her and told her we were pregnant. I bet people in China heard her scream with excitement!
Needless to say, we had a very busy day. The first day of my last period was July 18, 2009, and according to the StorkNet Due Date Calculator, I'll be due on April 24th. That puts me just starting my fifth week of pregnancy. Jamie and I decided that we would wait one more week before calling the doctor, since they probably won't see me until my seventh week anyway. We are extremely excited!!