~ Finally, Feeling More Capable
I was looking forward to week 12 for weeks. I told everyone how much I was looking forward to it and I was not disappointed. It seemed that everything changed for me. Even though the morning sickness hasn't totally disappeared, it has almost disappeared and only appears now when I am really hungry. I have so much more energy. Finally, our house doesn't look like a disaster area all the time. I am really happy about that and I am sure that Herman is too. I have the energy to take Yaheli out more and see friends throughout the week. It is a wonderful feeling to be almost free of that dreadful first trimester.
Now, I am just waiting for the second trimester shwing - especially for Herman's sake. I keep telling him that I can't wait for the day when we have all our children and my cycles can go back to normal permanently. No more post-natal hormone swings, no more nursing hormone oddities and no more pregnancy hormones . . . just me, him and Aunt Flow! Seriously though, men really have to cope with a lot of hormones in our lives and they have no way to relate to it because their bodies never have to go through such extremes. I wish that Herman could just live in my body for awhile and know how it feels.
This week was eventful for me because I was invited to sing in a small vocal ensemble of very talented singers. Singing has always been a part of my life. I started singing in fourth grade and up until I married I was always in some sort of choir or ensemble or taking private lessons. When I married I lost that part of myself because I was adjusting to this new city and didn't know where to go or who to talk to about singing in a choir or ensemble. This summer someone mentioned to me that there is a choir here in the Technion and I should audition. So, I did and I started singing in the choir last month. Me, being the shy person that I am, sat in the back so I wouldn't have to talk to too many people. Luck would have it that I sat next to two of the people who sing in the ensemble. A couple weeks later, they asked me to join them. Last week was my first week. There are 12 people in the ensemble and they were so nice and so welcoming. I am so glad I sat in the back!