Week 30 ~ June 1, 2005
~ Pregnancy Roller Coaster
So far this week has been a roller coaster of pregnancy emotions and experiences. We are into the third trimester and the last quarter of the pregnancy, Wow! It amazes me at how quickly time is passing and how slowly it seems to go all at the same time. It's so odd. I would say that my pregnancy really has been pretty typical as far as symptoms go. The rest of the things with the baby's size and my weight gain have started to even out in the past month or so. I haven't had an ultrasound in nearly a month and the doctor seems happy with my weight gain and the measurements of the baby. I had my 3 hour GTT test last week and haven't heard from the doctor so that's a good sign too. They said they would call Tuesday only if there was a problem with my test. Basically the physical stuff with me is good but this week the emotional stuff has me feeling so out of control.
I can't seem to get my emotions in check. I've been crying at the drop of a hat over really stupid things. Sunday I cried because I forgot to get lettuce for my husband's sandwiches. Monday I cried because I couldn't find my Palm (which has been missing since January). Today I cried because my husband forgot to kiss me and say good bye before leaving for work. I've also got the nesting instinct. This weekend I was going crazy about cleaning and organizing as much as possible. I packed away a lot of things for storage and loaded up a bunch of stuff for Goodwill so we can get more stuff out of the way for the remodel. I organized receipts and cleaned our office. I did laundry and vacuumed upstairs and down. I've also been crazy about wanting to shop. Ever since my mom bought us several outfits for the baby and my sister got us our first registry gifts I can't shake the urge to go out and get all the things I think we'll need for the baby. I want to go buy her a stroller, bassinet, car seat, all the big things. When I went grocery shopping I saw diapers on sale and bought four packages. I know all of this stuff is supposed to be normal but I don't feel normal at all.
I am looking forward to my next doctor's appointment on the 15th though. I want ask the doctor some questions and after that I start bi-weekly appointments. For most of the pregnancy the baby has been really low and laying sideways. All of her movement has been down below my waistline. When she kicks I can feel and sometimes see my belly bump out where she is kicking me. But yesterday she did a flip around. After lunch I felt her tumble around inside and she landed head down and started kicking me up around my ribs. I know the baby's only about 3 pounds but I could actually feel a change in pressure where the baby's head ended up. It was such a strange sensation. Last night I went to bed thinking “Okay, this is it. She'll stay this way the rest of the pregnancy.” Nope. This morning she was back down low, laying down sideways. I'm wondering when she'll turn head down and stay that way. Really though, I'm okay with her staying sideways a little while longer. It's a lot more comfortable for me.
Next week Sean and I start our prenatal classes on Tuesday nights. I am so excited. We get to meet other expecting couples and get some of our questions about labor and delivery answered. I'm a planner and I want to know how this thing is going to go so I can plan and prepare for it. I know it will never go as planned but just knowing more about what we can expect will make me feel better. I'm also going to a breastfeeding class on Monday. All the benefits for the baby, my work schedule after the baby comes and the fact that Sean really supports it makes breastfeeding the right choice for us. That said, I also know that breastfeeding is going to be a lot of work and it may not end up being what works for us. But I really want to give it a try and I am going to do what I can to make it successful.
Next week I'll let you know how our classes go. Take care.