~ Going Through the Motions
I'm exhausted. I work during the week, come home, eat, and go to sleep--sometimes as early as 6:30pm. I am generally so exhausted from working all day that I have nothing left to give for my family. Luckily, the kids and I get the weekends together which are usually pretty good. I've cleared my calendar for the weekends through my 12th week so the kids and I get time when I'm not tired from running everywhere. Sim works on the weekends so it's really just the three of us for the most part. I'm really hoping some of the nausea/fatigue will fade shortly.
We did tell the kids about the new baby since I had my first ultrasound, and Jeffery is very excited. He continually asks how big it is now, and how big it will be when it's born. He wants a sister, since he already has a brother. Owen is not thrilled, but I didn't expect him to be. At first he asked if everyone has a baby in their tummy, including himself. It was very cute, but has gone downhill from there. For the past year or so when asked what he thinks about babies, he's declared "I don't like those things!" When I ask him a question about the new baby he says that he doesn't want to talk about it, and I'm not having a baby. Owen did express some concern once though; he was worried that since it's in my tummy I'm going to get food on it. It made me laugh; I hadn't thought about it that way. I think it'll just take him some time to get a little more fond of the idea. Maybe he never will be, my Owen is a bit stubborn.
I am getting larger. I think my pants are trying to kill me. I remember buying my first pregnancy clothes at 18 weeks with Jeffery. Here I am 9 weeks now and I can wear my normal clothes, but they definitely aren't comfy. Of course Sim can't locate my maternity clothes in the attic, so I'm a bit concerned.
This weekend we set up Christmas. We put up the fake tree in the living room, and Sim and the kids cut down a little one from the yard for the family room. It looks a little Charlie Brownish, but they're happy. Usually we go to the Christmas tree farm and cut one down for the living room. The fake one is only for when we're out of town over the holidays, and I generally end up lending it to someone the years in between. This year though I just kept thinking of how nice the fake one is, and how it's pre-lit, and so much less hassle. So I am quite pleased. Pre-lit mattered more than piney smell this year. I also did online holiday shopping today, so I am feeling all around quite accomplished for not leaving the property.
I hope all of you are having a wonderful holiday season so far!