~ Sigh of Relief
Phew! What a relief it was to have my ultrasound on Monday. I have been so worked up because I had not felt the baby move. I was so scared to have this ultrasound. When I went in, I told the technician to please let me know immediately if my baby had a heartbeat. She assured me that I was overreacting and that most women don't feel movement this soon, but I was not accepting that until I saw my baby and its heartbeat. So within the first minute of the ultrasound she assured me that my baby did have a heartbeat. Tears ran down my face I was so happy. Now if she would just tell me that I am having a girl everything will be just fine.
You see, I have 3 girls. When I was pregnant with Violet we had been trying for a boy. I was kind of disappointed at first, when we found out she was a girl, but soon I came to relish the idea of another girl. And after she was born I was so happy that she was a girl and not a boy. I mean, girls have the best clothes, and I am really good at raising girls. So when we got the "surprise" that I was pregnant again, my first thought was, "Oh no, what if it is a boy!" Now I have been trying to prepare myself for the possibility that we could have a little boy on the way, but secretly I have been hoping for a girl. Naturally my husband has been dreaming of a little boy. He would be over the moon if we had a boy. Well, if you look through a telescope tonight, right there above the moon is where you will find my husband, because we are having a little boy. I have, of course, accepted the idea of a baby boy now, a little "Gary" running around the house wreaking havoc upon all of the girls. My dad couldn't have been happier either. I mean after having 3 daughters and 5 granddaughters, it was about time for a boy in the family. I believe that he thought this day would never come.
I go back in next month to have another ultrasound so that they can get some better pictures of the spine. I can't wait. But I definitely am not worrying about not feeling the baby move, because I started feeling the little bundle moving around in there in the middle of my ultrasound. He has been moving around ever since.