Boy, oh, boy, this has been one of those weeks where the ol' hormones have really been getting to me. I have had one bad day after another it seems like. I really try not to complain too much in my journal, but today I am just going to let it all out.
I am frustrated with all of my children's grandparents. I live in the same town with both of my parents, who are divorced and remarried, and with my in-laws. That makes three sets of grandparents. Do you know when the last time was that any of them asked to have Violet come over? I am not talking about Brooke and Rachel, because they are always asked to visit; I am talking about Violet Rose, my precious almost 2 year old. If memory serves me correctly, it was when my dad took her and all of the grandkids to the park back in May. Now don't get me wrong, I love my kids, but sometimes it would be nice to have a break to be by myself. With Gary gone so much, I am the one who has to do everything. Fine, I accept that. But with the kids home all day everyday, sometimes I just crave some alone time. The grandparents actually think that they are doing me a favor by taking either Brooke or Rachel or both off of my hands for a while, but what they don't seem to get (or maybe they do) is that Brooke and Rachel are easy, and my only helpers with Violet. I mean, does Violet have cooties or something??
And then, one of my parents, comes over unannounced a few times when the house is not in tip top shape and makes me feel like dirt because my dishes aren't done, or the carpet needs to be cleaned. How dare they insult me like that! Maybe if someone would volunteer to watch Violet once in a while, I could keep up with the house cleaning. But whatever. You know, my mother-in-law has not once in Violet's almost 2 years asked to have Violet come over. She is a great lady, but that hurts my feelings. Don't get me wrong, I have asked her to watch Violet a couple of times, and she has, but it would be nice if I didn't have to ask. That goes for all of the grandparents. My mother has the best excuse because she had back surgery at the beginning of the year and 2 hip replacements throughout the summer. She is finally recovered enough, and has kept Violet at my request for several of my doctor's appointments. Okay, I think I am done. I really do have a great family, even though I didn't brag on any good qualities in this entry. It is just hard to focus on the good when you feel blinded by the frustrating. (Deep breath) This too shall pass.
I have attached 2 pictures of my ever growing belly. I am also frustrated with them, because in order to see my belly I have to turn sideways, and that always gives me a double sometimes triple chin. I think that I will start cropping out my head. I sent 2 pictures because my daughter Brooke and I could not agree on which one I should use.
I have a doctor's appointment coming up on Thursday. I'll let you know how that goes.