Slowly I have started eating a little better. I'm just about half way through my pregnancy and most of the time I still feel like crap. Some days I tend to eat and feel better than others. I'm hoping my body is trying to balance this out.
The baby has been moving more lately which is always reassuring. I just can't help but to notice the movements feeling different from my first baby. I think the baby is hearing more and more of what's going on outside the womb. While I'm at work it can be quiet for a short time but if I start talking or start typing on the keyboard I feel some flutters. The baby may be listening to my co-workers too; usually we joke or laugh about stuff or have general conversation. I get kicks or some squirming action. Sometimes it tends to tickle in certain spots.
It's weird how it seems like every week my stomach is getting bigger but I'm not putting much in it which still worries me. I think it's because I didn't have this problem with the first baby. Weight wise I think I may have gained a few but also lost a few; it's confusing.
In about a week I'll be heading back to my doctor and hopefully finding out what we're having. I'm trying not to get my hopes up on a girl, but the thought is exciting. I think either way I'll cry. If it's a girl it will be a happy moment and a sad one at the same time. As much as my late mother loved her grandson she would be just as excited for a granddaughter. If it is a girl she will be named after our late mothers (that is my mother and Will's mother) but if it is a boy I'll be okay eventually. The only thing is for me it won't be much of a surprise since we already have a monster; he would just have another monster to bond with. I have had only one person tell me they think the baby is a boy and she claims it's because I don't look like I'm going to have a girl, I don't look it in my face. Of course she started a war in the office but we'll have to wait and see. Even my doctor thinks it could be a girl. Father-to-be on the other hand insists it's a girl and he has already been telling Willie he is going to have a sister. I told him that there is a 50/50 chance you're lying to our son. He, of course, says that anyone who thinks I'm carrying a boy will be eating their words. That's a pretty bold statement but he may be the one to be eating his own.