Week 21 - July 12, 2006
~ Things A Pregnant Woman *Shouldn't* Do
I learned a very important lesson this week. Don't plan a party -- ever -- if you're pregnant. It's a lesson I learned the hard way. While I made every effort to not get stressed, I ended up doing just that, and putting my husband through more angish, frustration, stress and anger than I ever wanted to. Right now, not only do I feel miserable, but I feel like I've completely pushed him away -- the very thing I didn't want to do. Between worrying about who would actually come, or not inviting the "right" people, or feeling pressure that it wouldn't come out right -- it was just way too much. I'm still hopeful that it will be a good time, that is, if I can somehow make it up to my husband for my hormonal infused over-sensitivity. Right now, I feel like the only two who want to even tolerate me in the house are my stepson and my cat -- but the cat's the only one who will even get near me. I know, it serves me right. It just still hurts like h---.
Well, not to be a complete downer, got some great news from Cassie this week -- while visiting her father and grandparents in New England, she learned how to ride her bicycle without training wheels! I was so proud of her when she called us earlier this week with the good news, although I was a teensy bit sad that I missed seeing this milestone. I promised her that I'd take her to Rita's to get a treat when she comes back. These three weeks since she's been gone have just dragged, to say the least.
On Tuesday night, I am pretty sure I felt the baby move -- on the outside. I spent most of Tuesday night sniffling and sneezing (I think due to a head cold), so the diversion from little baby was quite welcome. I'm starting to feel more and more kicks and stronger ones at that.
Not really much more to write about this week. I'll keep you all posted on how things turn out this weekend. I'm looking forward to finally seeing Cassie again on Saturday and having her help me with the party. I'm determined to make it a success . . . and hopefully undo the damage I've done.