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Week Thirty-One
~ Excited and Scared

Our babies sure are growing! Last night Larry and I met his sister Missy, who is an ultrasound tech, at her office and she did another scan on the babies. She was much more thorough than our last three scans. She measured our babies, listened to their heartbeats, checked the blood flow through the placenta and just did an overall look at our little miracles. Jacob weighs in at 3 pounds, 14 ounces. Rachel is bypassing him at 4 pounds even. She even measured their tiny little feet. Jacob's are about 2 3/4 inches and Rachel's are about 2 1/2 inches long. It is so great to see them moving around. Jacob is still head down and in position and Rachel is still straight across my body and appears in no hurry to move. Missy did check their sex organs and made sure I was still carrying a boy and a girl. No doubt about it; one of each.

I'm starting to get nervous, anxious and scared about the next few weeks. I'm suddenly terrified at the thought of these babies having to come out. I guess it's the fear of the unknown. There is a huge possibility that I will need a c-section and of course we won't know until it happens so I can't really prepare myself. I have read lots of books about childbirth, but I'm sure I'll forget it all once I start having my first contraction. I guess I'm also more than a little nervous about taking care of them once they arrive. Right now it's a lot easier to care for them where they are.

Through all the worries, I am also very excited about meeting our son and daughter soon. I wonder who they will look like, what color their eyes will be, their hair color, what personalities they will have and what it will feel like to finally hold our babies in my arms. I can't wait to see Larry's reaction to seeing his babies for the first time. He's going to be such a great Daddy. I know he is getting excited too. We've been so worried over the past few weeks with all the potential problems. We were so afraid that they would be born too early. I guess we feel a little more confident now that they both will be just fine. Our prayers won't stop though until they are here safe and sound.

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