Tara's Working Mom's Journal Journal
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Tara (42) and Bill (47) had their first child on November 24, 2006. Cameron is a StorkNet Baby! Tara has a daughter from a previous marriage and Bill has a son from his previous marriage.

This is Tara's story of juggling the ups and downs of being a working mother.

Entry 40 - October 28, 2014
~ On the Rollercoaster, Yet Again

I wish I had better tidings or a better title for this entry, but I'm honestly just trying to hang on to my self-esteem, and to some degree, my confidence as well.

Those of you who have read my entries from last year will know that 2013 was a crappy year, with a lot of instability and uncertainty. I honestly thought 2014 would be different. Turns out, it was, at least initially.

In August of this year, I was (once again) let go from my employer at a local hospice agency, even though I had done nothing wrong, but just the same, I was let go. Fast forward to today, and I am once again in this mess, after (surprisingly) being hired in late August as a director of admissions for a local nursing home. I gave both jobs my all and did, in my heart, the very best I could. These so-called "employers" felt otherwise.

Now, I'm back at square one.

I am working right now on a local campaign to help oust a lawmaker who has honestly been in the job for far too long and is not doing enough to help his constituents. The woman I am supporting is the complete antithesis. It's nice to be part of an effort to help people and to make a difference. In all honesty, that's what truly motivates me.

I am hoping that this latest bump in the road is a short one. I really don't know how much more of this I can take. Once or twice to be let go from a job is one thing, but this rollercoaster has to stop. I am beyond nauseated and my family - and I - deserve better.

My daughter is in her senior year of high school, and I'd like to enjoy it, without wondering whether or not the ax is going to come back down on me again. I can't understand why this keeps happening. Neither can my husband. While I don't feel he outright believes I am sabotaging myself, there are some days I wonder if he truly does think that. In my heart of hearts, I have done nothing wrong. I only want to work hard and help support my family, including helping my daughter through college. I honestly don't think that's too much to ask.

Again, I wish I had some better words of wisdom to impart or something positive to add, but I'm drawing a blank right now. I want this particular journey to end. Now. I need and deserve better.


Tara's Journal Entries

Entry 1 - 3/14/07
Challenges and Rewards

Entry 2 - 4/4/07
Friendships and Challenges

Entry 3 - 4/30/07
A Typical Day

Entry 4 - 5/16/07
Being Thankful

Entry 5 - 6/1/07
Feeling *Very* Burned Out . . . and Not Sure What to Do

Entry 6 - 6/13/07
It's Official

Entry 7 - 7/19/07
Treading Carefully

Entry 8 - 8/10/07
Plugging Along

Entry 9 - 10/8/07
Wow, I Guess it Has Been A While

Entry 10 - 12/5/07
Birthdays, Turkey Day and More . . .

Entry 11 - 1/23/08
OK, Enough Procrastinating, Tara

Entry 12 -3/25/08
Good News!

Entry 13 - 5/4/08
Changes Galore

Entry 14 - 6/17/08
Heartbreaking Facts

Entry 15 - 8/5/08
Keeping My Head Above Water

Entry 16 - 9/23/08
Itís Been a While, I Know

Entry 17 - 11/12/08
Keeping On Keeping On

Entry 18 - 11/25/08
Remembering to be Thankful

Entry 19 - 2/3/09
We're Alive and Kickin' (Despite The Cold)!

Entry 20 - 4/21/09
No, I Haven't Dropped Off the Face of The Earth

Entry 21 - 8/25/09
Yay - Summer's (Almost) Over!

Entry 22 - 11/9/09
Savoring the Last of Autumn

Entry 23 - 1/21/10
New Year Brings New Hope, Renewed Determination and Strength

Entry 24 - 3/8/10
Spring Can't Come Soon Enough!

Entry 25 - 5/3/10
Busy, Busy, Busy!

Entry 26 - 7/13/10
Summer . . . Is it Almost Over?

Entry 27 - 8/2/10
One Little Bird, One Big Lesson

Entry 28 - 11/8/10
Fall, Please Don't Rush Out of Here!

Entry 29 - 1/25/11
Ok, Winter ... Enough Already!

Entry 30 - 3/14/11
Trying to Catch My Breath & Make Sense of Everything (within reason)

Entry 31 - 5/24/11
Moving Along

Entry 32 - 7/14/11
Attempting to Keep Things on the Up & Up . . . But It's Not Easy

Entry 33 - 9/15/11
Wow, Has It Been That Long?

Entry 34 - 1/18/12
Life Threw a Curve ball, & I Finally Caught It!

Entry 35 - 11/11/12

Entry 36 - 8/19/13
Long Overdue Updates (a.k.a. Where Do I Begin?)

Entry 37 - 10/30/13
Ok God - Now What?

Entry 38 - 2/2/14
New Year, Renewed Faith

Entry 39 - 5/21/14
Spring . . . Finally!

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