Entry 25 - May 3, 2010
~ Busy, Busy, Busy!
To say the last few months have been a whirlwind of activity in our family would be an understatement!
First, Cassie is still quite busy with school and she is on the track and field team this year (and doing very well) - not to mention orchestra as well. Her concert is coming up in a few weeks and I'm sure she'll be great. She's also been pretty active in our church's youth group; she went on a really cool kike about two weeks ago and had fun and helped with the church's breakfast on Easter Sunday. And, if her schedule isn't busy enough, she also has a boyfriend (yikes!) who is very nice and is the youngest in his family (he has two older sisters).
Cameron is growing and growing and makes us all laugh with his antics! He is finally interested in going on the potty like a "big boy" and is making some huge strides in getting rid of the diapers once and for all. He's so proud of himself when he goes; he says, "I'm doing it! Are you proud of me?" Cassie likes to teach him the words to popular songs; she's a pretty good teacher and he's a very good learner (maybe too good!).
This past weekend, we took part in the local March for Babies walk in our community. Our team was able to meet and beat our goal - and luckily the weather wasn't too bad. Last year it was wet and rainy and we kept the walk short. This year, we took turns pulling Cam in his new wagon and he loved it! All in all, we had a good time and raised money to help babies and their families.
As a family, we're doing pretty well. While I love the spring, I get a bit anxious as the summer approaches (regular readers will understand this), as Cassie gets closer to the end of school and I have to prepare myself for extended stretches of time being away from her. I thought as she got older, this might get easier, but it doesn't. All I can do is pray and keep those lines of communication open. I will do everything I can to ensure that this summer goes a LOT easier than last year. Last year was awful . . . and I refuse to repeat it. Stress is bad on everyone, but especially the kids and I will do everything in my power to ensure they're taken care of, even if others, who have it out for my husband and me, try to thwart our efforts. No one should mess with a good family - NO one.
I continue to thank God for our blessings, even when there are challenges that we are currently dealing with . . . work, school/kids, etc. There are many of our friends who are dealing with some awful things - losing a job, finding work, divorcing - sometimes it just seems like the bad news and sadness will never dissipate. You hate seeing those you care about worried or in pain (mental or physical) and sometimes it's very frustrating because you feel as if you can't help them.
I think that's why the campaign our agency is involved in has really kept me going. We're doing an overall awareness/outreach campaign statewide designed to let people know about services for crime victims in their community - that 1) they're available and 2) they're free and confidential. It's great to be a part of something that's truly helping people. It's the first *huge* campaign I've been involved in. As far as I'm concerned, if it can help one person, it's worth it.
I have to remind myself to keep my eyes on the "bigger" picture and not have my focus be myopic. I have to remember that good things occur all around us - if we take the time to look. One of my favorite Bible verses is "Be still and Know that I am God." When things start to feel too much, I think of that verse and it helps calm me. I've been trying to read my Bible on a (more) regular basis. Some days I do better than other days, but I will keep trying. That's all any of us can do.
With Mother's Day coming up, I'm thinking more and more about the type of mom I want to be. I have come a long way in a few years and have made some huge changes in my outlook and behaviors, especially toward Cassie and David (my stepson). I have worked really hard to "unlearn" some of those bad behaviors and actions. I didn't have a good teacher, to put it mildly, but I have learned from my mistakes and will keep focused on what I *can* do as a mom and not be so tough on myself. It's a work in progress, especially if you've have an extremely poor and judgmental person as an example and you have to "undo" years of horrible stuff.
Well, duty calls so I must close off on this entry for now…hope you like the Easter picture! I know I'm biased, but my kids are so cute!