Entry 34 - January 18, 2012
~ Life Threw a Curve ball, & I Finally Caught It!
Wow... where do I begin ? Well, as most expert writers will tell you, at the beginning... so much has happened in the last few months, it's tough to really know where to start.
About two months after my last entry, I was notified, in probably one of the worst ways possible, that my services were no longer needed at my last place of employment (agency within state government). No rhyme or reason was given, but I suspected it had to do with someone I alluded to in previous entries, who currently serves as executive director of that agency. She was one of the WORST managers I have had the displeasure of working with, if you can even call it that, considering her management style was more of "you cater to me or else" mentality/practice. Between her and the man I had to work with in my first year of radio, they take the cake for WORST supervisors ever... her for incompetence, game-playing and overall morale lowering; him for being a sexist, chauvinistic, ego-maniac pig... but I digress...
Suffice to say it was earth shattering and scary. I was petrified, angry at the complete dismissal of my hard work and efforts, especially under this particular person, who had it out for me from the get-go for *no reason,* except that she didn't like me. After the initial shock wore off, I had layers of stress that seemed to dissipate overnight. I never, EVER had to go back there to that place were I felt so unhappy for months. I was FREE. At the same time, I knew I had to start looking and fast. My friends were beyond wonderful -- almost immediately after I sent out an email blast, letting them know what happened, my phone nearly rang off the hook and my email box filled up... with messages of support, job leads, ideas, etc... it really bowled me over, but in a good way.
I quickly got some interviews, which was a nice surprise, since I had been looking for awhile and got a few here and there, but nothing panned out... and one friend of mine put me in touch with a client who needed a new marketing and PR director. One thing led to another and they hired me! I started shortly after the New Year and haven't looked back. Each day, I'm getting more and more up to speed and learning more, and everyone's been great. It's great to be treated so professionally, something I've wanted (and deserved frankly) for some time. While it does mean a bit more of a commute, it's not been too terribly bad, and the benefits all around make up for it.
It has been a bit of a transition, since I was home for a while... I really give kudos to stay at home moms, because I don't think I could do it full time permanently. I need to have some sort of work outside of the home... that's just me; I know it does work for some. There may be a chance to do some work from home (telecommute) in the future, but not now, especially while I'm still getting my feet wet. But the hours are flexible and there could come a point where some days I could get some work duties done from home. It's nice to have a good support system at my new job, that has taken some getting used to!
This experience has taught me a few things... one, that even when something you feared and dreaded happens to you, you do survive (even if you are petrified); two, you really know who your friends are when the stuff hits the fan; and three (most important), lean lean lean on God. I was initially a little angry with God when this happened, because I asked Him to let me stay employed until I could find another job... and when that didn't occur, I was like, "gee, thanks, now I'm freaking out here!" But, as always, He knew what was coming down the pike more than I did, and I had to renew my trust and put it in His hands.
Well, suffice to say, with the holidays behind us, and the New Year in full swing, we are busy here... now I'm just waiting for winter to leave (not one of my favorite seasons, never really has been) and continuing to juggle home and work "lives," for lack of a better word. Still, I'm very thankful for the blessings that have been bestowed to our little family and that even when you feel the most helpless and alone, you're never ever truly alone... not when you have your family, your friends and God to lean on.
With that, here's to a great 2012 and glad to put the mess of 2011 behind me!
Take care everyone,