Tara's Working Mom's Journal Journal

 

Entry 38 - February 2, 2014
~ New Year, Renewed Faith

I will admit, I was a bit at my wits' end with my last entry, as I felt like I was spinning my wheels and not really getting anywhere, which did a number on me, mentally and physically.

I began to lean even more on God and on putting it all on His shoulders, and for the most part, I was OK. As Christmas drew closer, I started feeling more hopeful and not questioning that feeling, but just going with it. I kept networking, searching, looking, staying busy and refused to allow myself to be dragged down that hole of depression. There were times where I had to remind myself of putting it in God's hands more than just a few times a day.

About a week before Christmas, I noticed an update from a former state employee colleague of mine, who left state employment and now works for a local hospice. She was looking for someone to join her team on LinkedIn and I emailed her ASAP. In less than three days, I was offered the job! As my husband puts it, 'you were long overdue for someone to give you a break.' And thankfully, she has!

It ties in a bit with my former job in healthcare at a local hospital, but there are some differences - I'm on the road more (which is OK) and there's still lots to learn, but I really like it. My primary motivation has always been to help people, and in this way, I can. I really like that aspect of the job and helping people at a time when they're in need of support and help is something I really enjoy. I have to believe that God led me to this opportunity for a reason, and I'm determined to excel at it and make my family proud of me.

Speaking of family, we were able to see my stepson, David, over the holidays, which was nice. He wasn't able to stay for long, but we were able to hang out together and catch up . . . hopefully, we'll be able to see him over the summer, too. It was much nicer over the holidays to not have that worry and fret hanging over my head about getting a job (and losing emergency unemployment benefits) and spend some more time with the family before I started back to work after the New Year.

Now, if only the snow and yucky winter weather would let up! I think last week was the first week both kids were able to finish an entire *full* week of school! I think it's safe to say that even Cameron, who admits to loving winter, is getting tired of it. Cassie is, too, although she's always been more of a fan of the warmer weather (I think part of that is due to her being a "summer baby." Between the cold weather, a busted pipe, higher heating/oil bills, and having to clear off my car of snow/ice for the umpteenth time, I'm a bit weary of it, no doubt about it.

Suffice it to say, this entire experience has, once again, reminded me that no matter what, that 1) it's always important to be thankful, even if you feel you've been handed a huge dose of bad luck, and that 2) nothing ever stays the same for long. You just have to do all you can to make things change for the better. I am very lucky to have such a supportive family - not everyone has that . . .

Well, we're going to go out and enjoy some of the unseasonably warm temperatures today (at least try to enjoy it while I can) . . . take care and stay warm, everyone . . . counting the days to spring!

~Tara

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